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| Tuesday, February 24, 2004 |
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BASICS
001) Name: jiayi. 002) D.O.B.: 060488. 003) Location: yishun. 004) Religion: christianity is not a religion. 005) Occupation: student. 006) Contact: 90601463? musicgirlx@hotmail.com STYLE 001) Clothing: jeans + t-shirts for walking around. shorts + sleeveless for beach outings! semi-formal when i feel like! hahas. 002) Music: sappy, meaningful lyrics, praise and worship. 003) Make-up: nahhx. 004) Body art: nope. RIGHT NOW 001) Wearing: pyjamas. 002) Listening to: free. 003) Thinking of: tmr's common test. LAST THING YOU... 001) Bought: a packet of apple juice. 002) Ate and drank: chocolate biscuit + plain water. 003) Read: cheong's blog. 004) Watched on TV: can't remember. EITHER / OR 001) Club or houseparty: both are fine. 002) Tea or coffee: tea. 003) Achiever or slacker: achiever. 004) Beer or cider: anti-alcohol. 005) Drinks or shots: hehs? 006) Cats or dogs: both are adorable. 007) Single or taken: single larr. 008) Pen or pencil: both. 009) Gloves or mittens: mittens. 010) Food or candy: neither. 011) Cassette or CD: CD. 012) Coke or Pepsi: neither. 013) Hard or mild alcohol: neither. 014) Matches or a lighter: matches. 015) Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: both are beautiful. LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN? 001) Touched: mummy. 002) Talked to: daddy. 003) Hugged: babygirLx. 004) Instant messaged: kaihui? can't remember. 005) Kissed: babygirLx. 006) Who broke your heart: i brought it upon myself.so basically,not the person's fault larr. 007) Had a crush on: pig! WHERE DO YOU... 001) Eat: school lorrs. 002) Dance: in the house of God. 003) Cry: anywhere.because my tear will just stream down. 004) Wish you were: the place where i want to be in 18mths later. HAVE YOU EVER... 001) Dated one of your best friends?: hehs? 002) Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: -dUh- 003) Drank alcohol?: i think i tried before. 004) Done drugs: NEVER. 005) Broken the law: many times. 006) Ran away from home: thought of but never. 008) Cheated on a test: who never?! 009) Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: i had a good and bad dream from yesterday until this morning. 010) Played truth or dare: yupps.common larr. 011) Flashed someone: hahas! yes! leng! 012) Mooned someone: what's that? 013) Kissed someone you didn't know: nope. 014) Been on a talk/game show: nope. 015) Been in a fight: nope. 016) Ridden in a fire truck: nope. 017) Been on a plane: nope. 018) Come close to dying: yes.spritually alot of times. 019) Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: i am still a pure girl.how to cheat? 020) Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: definitely! piggyx! babygirLx! 021) Eaten a worm/mud pie?: yuckks! 022) Swam in the ocean: nope. WHAT IS... 001) The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: vicki zhao's. 002) Your bedroom like?: things i need. 003) Your favorite thing for breakfast?: seldom take breakfast. 004) Your favorite thing for lunch?: i rather don't eat. 005) Your favorite thing for dinner?: no interest. 006) Your favorite Restaurant?: the cafe cartel? i like their sofas only.hahas~ ARE YOU... 001) A Vegetarian?: nope. 002) A Good Student?: in the process. 003) Good At Sports?: yes. 004) Wakeboarding/snowboarding: nope. 005) A Good Singer?: i think so.hahas~ 006) A good Actor/Actress?: nope.my face shows everything. 007) A deep sleeper?: nope.unless i am desperate for sleep. 008) A Good Dancer?: nope. 009) Shy?: on some situations. 010) Outgoing?: yes. 011) A good storyteller?: not really. 012) Last words: move on! -bahhs- a dayy at home is quite boring~ from the number of times i blogg can tell already! hehes. she fluttered at 11:39 AM |
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wonderfully written..
God is like a magnificient scriptwriter..He has scripted out the play of life from the beginning till the end.He has drafted out every emotion, every thought, every action even before they were executed, every word before they are on each's minds or lips. He knows already who's going to turn back on Him, who's going to hurt Him.. He knows who will come back to Him..he knows the sheep and goat. In fact, there is nothing that He has created that He does not know.. So, we can be sure that the mode of our purpose is holy,good and well preserved in the archives of His well secured final drafts.Our plans r safe in His hands. The question is; at the end of the day..WHY did God even want to stage this whole play? In fact, theres few benefits to God Himself when He put in His blood (literally) and sweat into this magnificient creation..He experienced..more hurt, more pain, the sin of ppl belted down on Him at the cross.. So why? Why this entire episode? What is His purpose of creating something out of nothing (us) to 'torture' himself? He hates sin. He hates it with a holy repulsion, a fierce righteous anger. If we're not created..there'll be no sin, there'll be no hurt for God..no sorrow..no pain no anger..no cross. No excruciating pain..the pain of seeing your loved ones die away in sin.. the sin that He hates.. So why? Much of God's perceptions are different from ours.. God's nature is love, He IS love, He IS beauty..and when He created the heavens and the earth, the soul, the spirits, the beings, and when He allowed creation to happen and freewill to take place, He's also enabling His divine nature flow in His work. Did not God say that we are His most beautiful creation? He's not human. So what if He has to go to the cross to show us His love? so what if we're trouble? He still loves us. He created us for Himself only to love. He cares not about the trouble we give. His love and all of His thoughts are infinite..we can never comprehend totally..but all we can say is that He is not like us. Thats why He doesnt need a reason for creating something to love though He know it will eventually bring on even more pain n exceeding drama for Himself.Thats why we say God's love is great. GOD created something(us) out of nothing, simply to love. At the cross, in His pain, in His suffering, what was the final message that Christ was trying to convey? He's saying He loves you. 'heck' the pain and all. He doesnt care. cos He's love is greater. Greater than all these. And we're created to be loved. We, the silly fools who aint know nothing most of the time of everything that we think we know... are all created just for Him to love. ripped it off from cheong's blogg. she fluttered at 10:04 AM |
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i dreamt of something good.
the dream really makes me smile.. how i wish it is the reality.. but it is nott.. it was just a dream.. endless dreams.. she fluttered at 7:48 AM |
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| Monday, February 23, 2004 |
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i dreamt of something really bad.
its haunting me. my brain is bursting soon.. because i kept forcing myself to be strong when i have not heal the wounded parts. i kept telling myself that i no longer feel - until the first tear fell again.. it was then,i breakdown into tears.. that shows i am weak.. dreams go awayy.. she fluttered at 10:10 PM |
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within the few minutes
lies the decisions. "every minute,i am thining of how to walk the next step in my life.there are just too many decisions i have to make." xD i am loving 4devotion more and more as each day pass.the joy and laughter that each day we have,i simply love it! we are getting on tracks on our studies! *yeahx* today we got back our social studies and english results! we were all very delighted to receive our social studies paper! *wiNkz* only 9 failures and the top scorer among the 3 normal academic class is from 4devotion! *cLaPz to clareNce!* hehes.we beat 4blessing this time round.i could see the smile that ignites on mr lau's face,of course,my fella classmates! xD ohhmans! we had a tremendous improvement for social studies alrights?! we used to have 3/4 who simply fail or hack care for social studies! hehes~ thankks to mr lau too.sucha motivating teacher who never give up on us! however,we really need to buck up on our english! -sighs- we only have 5 people who passed the test! -shakes head- i am thoroughly displeased + discouraged by the marks that i had scored.simply yuckks! *tsk tsk* i shall do something about it before it is too late! hehs.mummy picked me up from school and we had lunched together~ nice + sweet mum i have (: feeling quite sLeepy now~ shall go and sleep and wake up later to complete my hmws + study for wed common test~ (x 4devotion rAwKz! she fluttered at 4:03 PM |
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| Sunday, February 22, 2004 |
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ripped it off AJ2's blog.
1. Name: jiayi 2. Nick: jiajia.AJ1.ah jia.xiao jia(given by shuf!).jia mao.jia fei mao 3. Middle Name: jia? hahas! 4. Hair: brownish black. 5. Eyes: black? 6. Height: 157cm. (shorty larr! -shakes head-) 7. Location: singapore.yishun! 8. Birthday: approaching soon! "6th april" oops! did i just say it? hahas! 9. Zodiac: dragon. 10. Status: single(physical) married (spiritual) [Favorites] 11. Animals: penguine.dolphin.dog.cat. 12. Sport: badminton.basketball.swimming.jogging. aiyarr.any sports larr! 13. Color: red.white.black.pink 14. Song: the moment.wo bu nan guo.eyes finally see.hologram! -beams- 15. Band/Singer: sun yanzi.jay chou.david tao. 18. Scent: rose. 19. Movies: horror.thriller.comedy [ twin effect.darkwater.school of rawks! ] 20. Holiday: close friends birthday + mine. 21. Season: any. 22. Element: fire? 23. Book(s): bible.the diary of a teenage girl.yesterday i cried. 24. Do you wear makeup?: nope. 25. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes.by my own hands during class lesson. hahas! 26. Do you look for personality or looks: personality(includes how much the person love me) then looks. *wiNkz* 27. Perfect gal: i'm a girLx! 28. How many rings before you answer the phone: normally quite fast. 29. Future Career plans: lawyer,teacher or musician? 30. Do you sleep with stuffies: nope. 31. Do you want kids?: yeahx! they are really adorable -grins- 32. Are you popular: should be. 33. Are you pretty: in the eyes of God but not man. 34. Do you have your own phone line?: hp you mean? 35. Do you get along with your family?: -beams- 36. Do you have any piercing or tattoos?: yupps.on the ears. 37. Giving hugs?: yupps.it comforts me greatly. 38. Taking walks in the rain?: -starts dancing in the rain- 39. The mall?: different malls different experiences and memories (: 40. Go on stage?: quite okayy larrs. 41. Drinks: anti-alchoholic! 42. Smoke: anti-cigrettes! 43. Drugs: anti-drugs! 44. Eat meat: yupps.i am so meaty! hahas~! 45. Date: depends with who and what we do. 46. Sex: female? hahas~ 47. Eat sushi: quite okayy. 48. Bake: so-so. [Preferences] 49. Hot or Cold: coLd -brr- 50. Lace or Satin: hehs? 51. Blue or Red: red. 52. New or Old: both. 53. Rain or Snow: both. 55. Wool or Cotton: both. 56. Rose or Daisy: rose. 57. Private school or public school: depends. 58. Plain milk or chocolate milk: both. 59. Celsius or Fahrenheit: celsius. 60. Spring or Fall: spring. 61. Math or Art: both. 62. One pillow or two: two.hehes! 63. Dogs or Cats: both. 64. Adidas or Nike: both. 65. Coke or Pepsi: plain water please. 66. Oranges or Apple: apple! 67. Deaf or Blind: neither.but will prefer blind.so that i can still enjoy the melodious music! 68. Pool or hot tub: both. 69. Blonde or Brunette: what comes out lorrs. 70. Guys or Girls: both. 71. Tall or short: tall! 72. TV or Radio: both. Personal Stance on... 73. Homosexuality: no. 74. Brand names: what? 75. Abortion: nope.whyy kill a life? 76. Religion: Christianity is not a religion. 77. Animal Rights: yupps. 78. Love at first sight: quite believe. 79. God: my strength.my joy.my everything! 80. Aliens: freaks! 81. Horoscopes: aries? 82. Heaven: the cool place. 83. Hell: the hot place. 84. Reincarnation: nope. 85. Transvestites: hehs. 86. Boy Bands: okayy larr. 87. Rap: cool. 88. 80's music: hmms. 89. Punk: fine~ 90. Whats the prettiest instrument(s)?: pianos and guitars.they melts my heart. 91. Whats the prettiest part of the body?: i think overall matters. 92. Biggest fault: do not know how to treasure the friend whom i just lose -sighs- 93. Biggest fears: to be lost in this world. 94. Do you live in the moment?: i think so. 95. Do you care about looks?: yes.but i have no looks! hahas. 96. Do you like your handwriting?: not bad larr.must see compare to who. 97. Obsession: God.music.close friends. 98. Looking forward to: everyday; when God brings me to a higher level. 99. Favorite weather: all. 100. Do you ever wish you were somebody else?: yes.God; the righteous one. she fluttered at 7:31 PM |
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in this race,
i have lots of things that i am still learning. deleted the previous entry because it just cause further misunderstandings. like what paLx experienced,i got slapped by the Holy Spirit.i got slapped by the things that i should not be doing.i am truly blessed to have the few people around me whom i can learn from; from their past experiences that they shared to me.they gave me the trust that i needed the most,hence,i can see the world clearer.evil is something that i see in myself too; i am carnal too. i realized alot of things that i need to learn and things that i am still learning.i learn how to heal myself when i am wounded.i am still learning how to view things like how the righteous one will view (: give me time to learn, because i do not want the covenant among us to be broken. she fluttered at 12:33 PM |
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| Saturday, February 21, 2004 |
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she was unsure
if what you said was true. hmms,quite refreshed now though i only sLept for like 4hrs? -sighs- anyway,i am in the school's computer lab.hahas.fel brought the chocolates that her god-mum brought back for her from canada! *yUmz* very nice!! wOoaHs~ anyway,i think that i will flung my "heat transfer" test! -sighs- heh hehx! the more i see clarence kwek,the more i feel that he looks like tBk! hahas~ and guess what? clarence nickx is hBk! -bwahahas- i am highly amused by it! after class having shepherding with debbie and having CG404 meeting at europe room after PM.tmr studying geo. together with kh! "i do not know if what you said was true.it peace my heart yet it makes me to doubt you more." she fluttered at 9:46 AM |
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"have i lose trust in you or is my discerning about you true?" she fluttered at 1:08 AM |
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it brought us all
back to where we first met. mans.i got the booklet for registration for 'N' level examination today! i discovered the paper of "bible knowledge" and i am quite curious about it.wells,'N' level will be a very soon thing for me.some papers' dates had been set. ms tan shared to us about derrick's purpose once again and this phrase came into my mind a dreamer's dream never dies.it was one of the sermon that pastor jeff preached last year.derrick is one friend whom i really respect and have impact my life a little.he is a man with a purpose in hand and he will work towards it.the day in class is pretty alright; the fact that me and audrey talked once again? at least i have not lose a friendship? (: had english common test after school and it was quite an okayy paper.however,many of us feel that the time was not sufficient for us to complete. after school went with hui,leng and angel to toa payoh to eat? actually the main thing was to collect hui's spectacles! ohhs~ and i reallyyy feel like making a pair of nodegrees spectacles! hahas.hmms,went long john to have eat and we sat there for like an hr?we chat alot on 4devotion; who will promote to sec5,how the class have improved and whatgirlsusuallydoeswhentheygetstogether! hahas.after that walked around and hui supposed to wait for her mum but later never.we sat for like 3hrs at the staircase at the station and we chat everything under the sun! it has been eons since we really talk for so long! always busy with tests and exams! shared alot too and we really talk quite alots of craps! hahas~ ^___~ but we did enjoy each others' presence.did some evaluation on ourselves and we talked about how we were last time,how we have come by and how we have grown.hahas! and i switched my shoes with angel! hahas. came home and talked to ron before bathing.hehes,at least i am not alone in a way or another.ohhs,and i came across a blog which i ponder over.celine was giving me those "hahaz" when i paste for her to see.hehs,i shall not care! need to return back to sch tmr for F&N and i have a class test to sit for,yet i have not even touch on it! -looks at time- 12.48am.forgoodnesssake! how can i complete? nothing can help but the grace of God (: alrights,gotto go and study! two down! xD she fluttered at 12:49 AM |
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| Thursday, February 19, 2004 |
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ripped this off someone else's blog! hahas.
If you.... ->were a fingernail polish color, which would it be?: ::red,white,black or pink! ->had to be a football or baseball for one day, which wud it be?: ::baseball. ->were stuck on a tropical island what 8 things would you take?: ::handphone,money,water,map,compass,siMpsOnx! (hahas!),clothes! (to bathe!!) and of course,GOD! (without Him i will die at a kuku place! hahas.) ->were a food which wud it be?: ::fish and chips, porridge. ->were a jolly rancher?: ::jelly? ->cud switch places with anyone: ::i am happy for what i am created in,just a little touch up on my figure and height & weight will do! -bwahahas- ->could star in any movie, which would it be?: :: none. ->When I say ____ what is the first thing on your mind?? :: blank. ->Nail: :: nails lorrs! ->Fluff: :: what's this? ->Base: ::bass guitar? ->Glue: :: glue larrs! ->Taco: ::hehs -_____-"" ->Orlando: ::hmms... ->gizzard: o.O! ->flipper: ::penguine!! xD ->Brazil: :: "brazil...lalalalala..." Random ->If you cud live anywhere, where wud it be?: ::paris! ohhsmans...! ->What goes in first... Chocolate or Milk?: ::chocolate? ->What would you change your name to if you could?: :: i won't change. ->What celebrity do you realllllly wanna meet?: :: is God counted as? many idolize Him right? ->Wintergreen or Spearment?: :: hehs. ->Would you eat pink snow?: :: unsure. ->Whats your favorite body part?: :: FLAT tummy! ->How many words do you think you say on an average day?: ::depends.if i am in my crappy mood,i think you will lose count,else,it is average or there is REALLY sth wrong with me.so better check out on me! ->Goofy or Pluto?: :: goofy! ->Aint ya glad this is over..i am..: :: -_____-""!! am feeling -_____-"" now! hahas.this quiz is so --;; anyway,off to sLeep now! tired! she fluttered at 10:41 PM |
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for sure,
this time's curiosity will not kill her. hahas.today is a kind of socialstudiesday?today marks the first paper of my common test! not bad.at least i prepared! well well,i feel that 4devotion have greatly improve; in terms of attitude towards exams - even common test! social studies was quite okayy though it did stunned us when we received the question paper! ahahas. this is the very first time that i feel the time given was not enough. hehes.guess i am improving! *wiNkz* -pats myself- jiayou! -bwahahas- today's training was cancelled because shen wants us to go home and study.hehes. so i had lunch cum dinner together with leng,hui,angel,peter and felix.felt so bad that i did not realized the presence of pearlyn in bus 13! ohhsmyy! sorrypearlyn! ohhsmans! how lame can peter be?he was at his lamest that he can be when we were eating! ahahas~ but i enjoy! after that walked a little while at J8 - the place i recently detest! --;; and i saw this really nice dress at P.O.A!! -ssccreamx- the price ain't so bad.but sad to say,i am just too short to wear it! -curls lip- but i saw another nice blouse! xD felix,too, says it is nice! ((: was browsing some blogs and came across one that leaves me to ponder a little while.however,it did not bother me that much.hahas.talked to celine and we had the same reaction! hahas! so funnyy~ but again,celine,if our friend were to choose that wayy,i really have no comments for it and it did not really bother me that much.i do not wish to discern about it anymore. ohhs wells,i felt so embarressed just now! i got this contact who shares the same name as ron - veronica.so she sms-ed me telling me that she changed her hp no. which i thought it was ron! --;; so you see,i feel so -_____-""! think i better get doing my hmws! but i am feeling so so tired! -curls lip- "can i sleep and drift off to my dreamland?" -bahhs- i am really unsure about how's the schedule like for tmr! ): one down! xD she fluttered at 9:04 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 17, 2004 |
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after striving hard for so long,
i see that you do not see any changes in me however, i will not give up. until the very day that you say "you have changed". she fluttered at 8:38 PM |
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she know she will be bless
she knows that well. xD is what is in my heart now.i am so happy now though in the morning i was freaking worrying! hehes.indeed God's peace and strength is within me; to overcome everything.and if i am hurt or whatever,He will comfort me and His shelter will be over me! got back my F&N test paper and teacher praised me for always handing up homework on time when others don't! hahas. salt and light! -chants on- stayed back for geo re-test which i actually do not have to sit for it at all! -bahhs- but its alright, because mr lau will take the higher score! actually i passed my class geo. test which was a miracle? first time in my upper sec life! hahas.however,i scored bette in re-test, 17! (x mummy brought me to see doctor about my backbone that is always giving me problems.the doctor pointed out that the way i carry my bag is WRONG.she wants me to carry it HIGH,not at the butt there! i went O_O! that is like,so toot! hahas. she prescribed medicine for me to eat when necessary.dad join us later on. ohh mans! i found the song that i want! ((: bytheway,i should not be online from now till 1march due to common test,it determines everything! hahas.so peeps,rush me off when you see me online! except for fridays! xD miss you peeps! she fluttered at 5:39 PM |
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close my eyes and feel your mind
time has passed I walk like a shadow never knew what I am going through you touch my hand and take my breath away whisper on the wind so softly let the bright stars fill our dreams with love reach for your hand and you show me the way tonight, I feel close to you you open my door and light the sky above when I need a friend, you are there right by my side I wish we could stay as one I wish we could stay forever as one all the tears that haunt my past you promised it'll be better tomorrow play that song you and I listened to and let it gently ease our pain tender rain drops from the blue sky flowers blooming, life is so divine like sunlight on a stream you show the world to me so much love in this beautiful world search for the brightest star in the sky you will find the meaning of love don't be afraid , just be yourself we need this love I've never knew she fluttered at 5:30 PM |
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| Monday, February 16, 2004 |
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in my weakness
i seek for Your presence; for it comforts me. when i fall You pick me up when i cry You dried my tears my knees were brought down to bow before You and acknowledge Your power within me for i know that You carry me in Your everlasting arms; never letting me go lead me O Lord, in Your righteousness. she fluttered at 11:01 PM |
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the days are drawing nearer.
she cries. she yells for help. prayer please. she fluttered at 10:36 PM |
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+ BBQ + careleaders + coreteam + courageous camp + dangers! + evax day + faith camp + family + kbox + match at sas + moments + neb + siMpsOnx + soccer cg + steamboat + teachers' day + 17-05-03 + 05-11-03 + 08-11-03 + 3devotion'03 |
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| each individual.` | |
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+ aaron + ah xiao + AJ2 + amelia + cheow hong + chen pei + cherie + chew yee + clarence + debbie + dehui + ding cheun + eelee + ethan + esther + evelyn + germs + gwen + huixin + ian + irene + jacob + jaime + janis + jason + jeremy + jessie + jian cong + jia shen + joanne + joel + junhuang + junxiong + kokok + lausanne + linda + lisin + meiyan + puay + qian jin + ray + rain + reagan + ron + ruichen + ruth + samantha + sean + sheralyn + shi hui + shila + shirley + sophia + wynnie + timothy + valneo + wendeline + xiuhui + yanyan + yihui 
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+ guitarjia + musicgirLx 2003 + july + august + september + october + november + december 2004 + january |
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i want to lift my eyes and see the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plan i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord, let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You that lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see |
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